26.12.2017

Heya

I'm finally in some shape to write. I've been taking some time off the internet since Jonghyun's death. I know it's been a long time already but i got really affected by it. He had an amazing voice and a kind heart. He was also an open supporter of the LGBT+ community which is quite unusual in Korea. He was an inspiration and a shining star. He still is the latter, but just shines in a different place.
Not to dwell in sorrow anymore, I've been spending the holidays with my family and relatives. It's been nice taking some time off school, but I've ended up in some really awkward table conversations. Can't blame the relatives though, since over half of them don't know, and I'm not ready to tell yet.
I hope you all have peaceful holidays, even if you don't celebrate Christmas. 
Song of the day: Lee Hi - Breathe

3.12.2017

Cleaning room, cleaning thoughts

Double post today, because I've been thinking a lot of stuff while cleaning. I emptied my closet to arrange my clothes again, and then the age old question popped in my head; what do boys wear. I was looking at my skinny jeans, pondering if boys wear this stuff. Then I remembered my boy Jimin, and that he definitely does. Rock stars, emos, everyone wears skinny jeans, so they were clear. Then it was time to look at my shirts. T-shirts, button-ups,  sweaters, hoodies, all that jazz. I stopped at my button-up with a cat pattern. ''Can a boy wear something like this?''. I decided to keep it. My closet was all clear. Then I tried on a few outfits, and my favorite turned out to be blue jeans with iron-on patches, a black t-shirt with some text on it, round glasses and an over-sized denim jacket. I looked at the things like ''these were all bought from the girl's section'', no way i could wear them. But i liked the outfit so i was really conflicted. I went back and forth with it for quite a long time until i realized that it's nobody's business what i wear. I can wear what i want. I can wear clothes that i like and what I think look good on me. It doesn't matter if someone thinks otherwise. (still somehow everyday i manage to worry myself with what others might think) BUT you won't do it, right? You'll be your lovely self no matter what anyone else thinks!

2.12.2017

HELLO FELLOW PEEPS

SUPER GOOD NEWS!!!!
Remember that contest we participated in ( the video is still watchable :3)
Well, we came second!!!!
I couldn't be happier, we had an awesome team, and the whole time I had the feeling it was gonna be something awesome. I didn't allow myself to dream of any prize tho, thinking I would jinx it. Apparently it worked! My thanks to the group, who made it possible. Hopefully we can do some great things together in the future!
(Also I've spent the whole day watching MMA and yesterday i watched MAMA awards, and boy am i happy for BTS)
song of the day: BTS- Spring Day