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As you can see, a video has popped up on the front page, and yes, it is the final piece! The video looks so good! It has been sent to the competition and now we can only hope for the best. I also made some English subtitles for the video, they should be found there. Also notify me if you find something there that's not correct. Some of the parts were written in such a difficult way, and my friend even read a part of the actual law, so it was very difficult to translate. I also did it preetty fast and there were some Finnish words that just don't translate well to English. You should definitely watch the video and tell me if you enjoyed it! (also sub to the yt channel, so the dude can get his paycheck) (Seriously he's a great guy tho) (He shot and edited the whole thing amongst other things)
I liked our whole team, and we got a great result. All in all, would do again, and hopefully can. If nothing else, our band's musicvideos next *eye emoji* *another eye emoji*

Song of the day: Get Scared - Sarcasm

First day of shooting behind!

OH and I'm still so stoked!! We had our first day of shooting the video yesterday, and even though it was a (very VERY) long day, and I didn't get much sleep last night, I wouldn't change anything. I was home around 11 p.m, and this morning ( like every morning) I woke up at 4.45 a.m. The important part is, that I woke up in a super good mood. I'm not a morning person so usually the things going through my head when my alarm goes off aren't pretty. We have a super good team, and though I'm still a tad worried about my own face, everything and everyone else are working so well.
So far I've seen a few photos from the shoot, and everything looks awesome. Can't wait to be there again on Thursday!

Have a good day!
Song of the day - Fall Out Boy - Novocaine

Some evening chit-chat!

Heya dudes and dudettes and everyone inbetween.  I'm feeling stoked because tomorrow we are going to start filming a project to spread awareness about trans ppl in Finland. It'll be in finnish, but i promise to make subtitles for it as soon as its out! It is originally for a competition, and we could actually win some money. It would be great, because i could use the money some school books (because the money comes in giftcards, and one happens to be for the store i buy my books from). The money is NOT the reason for me to do the video, but spreading the word. The theme of the competition is something like ''is Finland equal?'' and our video's theme is that it aint. I'm sssuuper nervous though because i can't speak and the camera doesn't like my face that much ':)

I've also thought about writing down my dreams again. I've done it before, but stopped because i didn't have the time for writing. I found my old writings a few days ago and i really want to start doing that again. Might be looking into that soon!
Have a good evening!

Song of the day - Twenty One Pilots - Kitchen Sink

More of a serious topic today.

My friend just called me by my birthname today, as a joke. I know he didn't try to intentionally hurt my feelings, but it wasn't funny. Actually not funny at all. Actually so not funny that i broke down crying right as i got home. I know that might sound like overreacting, but I'll try and explain.

Of course he couldn't have known how it would affect me, but because every single one of my friends has already forgotten my birthname ages ago, it struck me like a lightning.  A few of those people in the group don't even know my birthname, which is a super good thing, and now they heard it too. In that group, i'm so used to being able to be myself, that someone reminding me of  who i still legally am in everyone elses eyes hurts like a motherfucker. I guess it breaks down my little happy bubble. I've tried to forget my birthname as much as possible, because it holds so many memories i want to let go of. So much unhappy time, and a broken person. That name is not me anymore.

I can't really even write proper grammar right now, but I wanted to get this out of my system. Remember that it's not ok to joke on a trans persons birthname. Also I have no hard feelings towards this friend of mine, since obviously he didn't know. But for the future, no joking on that please.

Have a good evening!

Song of the day: Stam1na - Kadonneet kolme sanaa

https://www.musixmatch.com/lyrics/Stam1na/Kadonneet-kolme-sanaa/translation/english

Here are the lyrics and (a bad) English translation, couldn't find a better one, sorry! It's understandable though!